FeistyMind

  • Uncomfortable sadness.

    Trying to pour out sadness is sometimes a useless exercise. Like most things in life, the only way to get rid of it is to experience it. To let it be, until it stops being. However sadness is uncomfortable. For us and for the others. Others should have nothing to do with our sadness. Unfortunately,…

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  • Heated Rivalry

    Books, TV series, audiobooks—you name it. I’m in. I haven’t had an obsession like this since Robert Pattinson stepped out of that Volvo wearing Ray-Bans. And honestly? I’m enjoying it. I’m not even pretending I want to tame whatever feelings Ilya is stirring up in me. I wish I could say it was just lust.…

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  • Echos

    On repeat… Bad things – Cailin Russo Then your fireworks set me offI’m like a time bomb in a stormIn your arms, I’d start a warWe’ve both been here beforeMatter of fact, I caught you lookin’ backSo let’s go I get what I wantI want what I seeI wanna do, do, do, do bad things…

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  • Shades of darkness

    For all the balance, routine, and positive, well-behaved vibes in my life, I carry an equal need for chaos and darkness. Some days I can avoid it. I can be the well-behaved woman I was taught to be.But other days—the days when boredom seeps into my bones—I cannot. On those days, I become the empress…

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  • Mood of the day

    Ask for the big, unreasonable things. The universe meets you at your level of audacity. No idea who wrote this, but it’s perfect.

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  • Anxiety

    What happens when I don’t write for more than eight days. I feel disconnected from my story, like I’m looking at it from the outside, through fogged glass; seeing only mist where there used to be the purple skies of Stellaris. I hate it. And at the same time, I know I’m doing the best…

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  • About life in this moment

    I am so tired I want to cry. I feel suffocated. Cornered. Like I’m underwater. I have a thousand and one items on my to-do list—some take thirty seconds, some take two hours—but the mental space they occupy is enormous. I have zero lines written to show for it, and at some point I start…

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  • The best of 2025

    In the quest for my 5-star reads of 2026, I decided to look back at my 2025 books—and the reasons why they earned so many stars. Let’s start with the facts: I read 62 new books and re-read 3 in 2025. The target was 52 (one per week), so yes—I went a bit over. A…

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  • There were very little good intentions to begin with. Thank the Lord for that. And I am oddly grateful for my own oversight. Still, the feeling that I am never doing enough is always present. My overachiever millennial brain simply cannot accept, without extra coaching, that it’s fine to have a slow January. And this…

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  • Swimming in murky waters

    I am in desperate need of a five-star read. The problem is: I don’t even know what I’m looking for anymore… I don’t feel like fluffy romances. God forbid a series longer than two books. Some kinks are not kinking anymore (I fear I’m getting immune). And fantasy… fantasy is starting to feel all the…

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