• Old wounds

    Duran Duran – Come Undone The song that opened the gates to more unprocessed childhood trauma. Eventually, one day in my life I will get to the bottom of it. I will process everything that happened and stop crying about it. But today is not that day, it seems. This lovely show from the 90s…

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  • Undoubtedly

    What are you manifesting for this year? This year I am manifesting more friends. I want more people that I can be an absolute clown with. Finish this sentence: Love feels like… Love feels like peace. Connor Storrie for Tiffany and Co.

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  • Being a fangirl

    We are not all the same. I am in love with a fictional character, and he is not real. For that reason, I can say or think a lot of unreasonable things about him. I can obsess, daydream, feel everything that character was built to make me feel. He was written for that, he was…

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  • Restlessness

    I am living in a constant state of restlessness. Forcing myself to stand still while my entire body screams for action. Blaming the winter season, the heavy mood in the house, my father’s death anniversary and his birthday (he would have been 75 this year). Blaming the calm at work, the damn consistent routine I’ve…

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  • Uncomfortable sadness.

    Trying to pour out sadness is sometimes a useless exercise. Like most things in life, the only way to get rid of it is to experience it. To let it be, until it stops being. However sadness is uncomfortable. For us and for the others. Others should have nothing to do with our sadness. Unfortunately,…

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  • Unable to write

    So I am reading The Philosophy Book. For no particular reason, except to think about different things. If your mind is consumed by only one thought, give it something else. It solves nothing. But it keeps you entertained.

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  • Wuthering Heights

    The book is not a romance, or it’s only a romance if you have a very generous imagination. But it’s powerful. Consuming. Anguished, like the weather that fills most of its days. I didn’t exactly like the book, for the same reason I’m still dealing with the aftermath of the movie: it is dark without…

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  • Heated Rivalry

    Books, TV series, audiobooks—you name it. I’m in. I haven’t had an obsession like this since Robert Pattinson stepped out of that Volvo wearing Ray-Bans. And honestly? I’m enjoying it. I’m not even pretending I want to tame whatever feelings Ilya is stirring up in me. I wish I could say it was just lust.…

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  • Echos

    On repeat… Bad things – Cailin Russo Then your fireworks set me offI’m like a time bomb in a stormIn your arms, I’d start a warWe’ve both been here beforeMatter of fact, I caught you lookin’ backSo let’s go I get what I wantI want what I seeI wanna do, do, do, do bad things…

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  • Shades of darkness

    For all the balance, routine, and positive, well-behaved vibes in my life, I carry an equal need for chaos and darkness. Some days I can avoid it. I can be the well-behaved woman I was taught to be.But other days—the days when boredom seeps into my bones—I cannot. On those days, I become the empress…

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