FeistyMind

  • Echos

    On repeat… Bad things – Cailin Russo Then your fireworks set me offI’m like a time bomb in a stormIn your arms, I’d start a warWe’ve both been here beforeMatter of fact, I caught you lookin’ backSo let’s go I get what I wantI want what I seeI wanna do, do, do, do bad things…

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  • Shades of darkness

    For all the balance, routine, and positive, well-behaved vibes in my life, I carry an equal need for chaos and darkness. Some days I can avoid it. I can be the well-behaved woman I was taught to be.But other days—the days when boredom seeps into my bones—I cannot. On those days, I become the empress…

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  • Mood of the day

    Ask for the big, unreasonable things. The universe meets you at your level of audacity. No idea who wrote this, but it’s perfect.

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  • Anxiety

    What happens when I don’t write for more than eight days. I feel disconnected from my story, like I’m looking at it from the outside, through fogged glass; seeing only mist where there used to be the purple skies of Stellaris. I hate it. And at the same time, I know I’m doing the best…

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  • About life in this moment

    I am so tired I want to cry. I feel suffocated. Cornered. Like I’m underwater. I have a thousand and one items on my to-do list—some take thirty seconds, some take two hours—but the mental space they occupy is enormous. I have zero lines written to show for it, and at some point I start…

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  • The best of 2025

    In the quest for my 5-star reads of 2026, I decided to look back at my 2025 books—and the reasons why they earned so many stars. Let’s start with the facts: I read 62 new books and re-read 3 in 2025. The target was 52 (one per week), so yes—I went a bit over. A…

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  • There were very little good intentions to begin with. Thank the Lord for that. And I am oddly grateful for my own oversight. Still, the feeling that I am never doing enough is always present. My overachiever millennial brain simply cannot accept, without extra coaching, that it’s fine to have a slow January. And this…

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  • Swimming in murky waters

    I am in desperate need of a five-star read. The problem is: I don’t even know what I’m looking for anymore… I don’t feel like fluffy romances. God forbid a series longer than two books. Some kinks are not kinking anymore (I fear I’m getting immune). And fantasy… fantasy is starting to feel all the…

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  • Death and its intricacies

    Death is not a topic for the weak of heart. Those who have never held hands with it might find this post insensitive and cold. But I believe the others, the unblessed ones who one day had their souls ripped out by death, will understand me. There’s no way for death to ever feel fine.…

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  • Sayings and other quotes

    You know how people say “Let Jesus take the wheel”? For me, nowadays, that just sounds idiotic. As Blair Waldorf would say: “Destiny is for losers. It’s just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen.” One of the biggest changes in my life came when I realized there’s…

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