FEISTY MIND

Not only from books can a woman live; this is the intersection of my multiple layers.

  • Some days

    Reaching a new place in life where I honestly fear being afraid. It’s not a pleasant place, full of catastrophic scenarios, disasters of epic proportions, chains of events that end in my doom… or worse, my kids’. These days are fewer and farther between, but they still exist. It’s my insecurity speaking, while my rational…

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  • About the week

    There’s nothing in life that comes without putting in the work. Every skill takes hours. You just need to put those hours in, there’s no other way. And do not believe anyone who tells you otherwise. When you are younger, you tell yourself that person A or person B are just more talented at music…

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  • Old wounds

    Duran Duran – Come Undone The song that opened the gates to more unprocessed childhood trauma. Eventually, one day in my life I will get to the bottom of it. I will process everything that happened and stop crying about it. But today is not that day, it seems. This lovely show from the 90s…

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  • Undoubtedly

    What are you manifesting for this year? This year I am manifesting more friends. I want more people that I can be an absolute clown with. Finish this sentence: Love feels like… Love feels like peace. Connor Storrie for Tiffany and Co.

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  • Being a fangirl

    We are not all the same. I am in love with a fictional character, and he is not real. For that reason, I can say or think a lot of unreasonable things about him. I can obsess, daydream, feel everything that character was built to make me feel. He was written for that, he was…

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  • Restlessness

    I am living in a constant state of restlessness. Forcing myself to stand still while my entire body screams for action. Blaming the winter season, the heavy mood in the house, my father’s death anniversary and his birthday (he would have been 75 this year). Blaming the calm at work, the damn consistent routine I’ve…

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  • Uncomfortable sadness.

    Trying to pour out sadness is sometimes a useless exercise. Like most things in life, the only way to get rid of it is to experience it. To let it be, until it stops being. However sadness is uncomfortable. For us and for the others. Others should have nothing to do with our sadness. Unfortunately,…

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  • Heated Rivalry

    Books, TV series, audiobooks—you name it. I’m in. I haven’t had an obsession like this since Robert Pattinson stepped out of that Volvo wearing Ray-Bans. And honestly? I’m enjoying it. I’m not even pretending I want to tame whatever feelings Ilya is stirring up in me. I wish I could say it was just lust.…

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  • Shades of darkness

    For all the balance, routine, and positive, well-behaved vibes in my life, I carry an equal need for chaos and darkness. Some days I can avoid it. I can be the well-behaved woman I was taught to be.But other days—the days when boredom seeps into my bones—I cannot. On those days, I become the empress…

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  • Mood of the day

    Ask for the big, unreasonable things. The universe meets you at your level of audacity. No idea who wrote this, but it’s perfect.

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