FeistyMind

  • About life in this moment

    I am so tired I want to cry. I feel suffocated. Cornered. Like I’m underwater. I have a thousand and one items on my to-do list—some take thirty seconds, some take two hours—but the mental space they occupy is enormous. I have zero lines written to show for it, and at some point I start…

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  • The best of 2025

    In the quest for my 5-star reads of 2026, I decided to look back at my 2025 books—and the reasons why they earned so many stars. Let’s start with the facts: I read 62 new books and re-read 3 in 2025. The target was 52 (one per week), so yes—I went a bit over. A…

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  • There were very little good intentions to begin with. Thank the Lord for that. And I am oddly grateful for my own oversight. Still, the feeling that I am never doing enough is always present. My overachiever millennial brain simply cannot accept, without extra coaching, that it’s fine to have a slow January. And this…

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  • Swimming in murky waters

    I am in desperate need of a five-star read. The problem is: I don’t even know what I’m looking for anymore… I don’t feel like fluffy romances. God forbid a series longer than two books. Some kinks are not kinking anymore (I fear I’m getting immune). And fantasy… fantasy is starting to feel all the…

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  • Death and its intricacies

    Death is not a topic for the weak of heart. Those who have never held hands with it might find this post insensitive and cold. But I believe the others, the unblessed ones who one day had their souls ripped out by death, will understand me. There’s no way for death to ever feel fine.…

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  • Sayings and other quotes

    You know how people say “Let Jesus take the wheel”? For me, nowadays, that just sounds idiotic. As Blair Waldorf would say: “Destiny is for losers. It’s just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen.” One of the biggest changes in my life came when I realized there’s…

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  • Sorry…my new year just starts in March. I’m opting out of the Gregorian calendar, like humans did long before we decided January needed life-changing resolutions. God forbid I let Pope Gregory XIII tell me what to do! January is cold, dark, and deeply depressive. February is just more of the same — and for those…

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  • The year I stopped pretending

    If I had to choose one sentence to define 2025, it would be this: I finally stopped lying to myself.About what I want, what I don’t want, and who I actually am when I’m not performing for anyone else. This year was not soft. It was not delicate. It was not wrapped in velvet bows.…

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  • History and Religion

    Discussing history and religious implications in my head is one of my pastimes. Born and raised Catholic, I have been agnostic for a long time now. I believe in magic, and therefore I believe that something more might be possible, even if it is, rationally speaking, improbable. The intricacies of Catholicism never cease to amaze…

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  • Villain Era

    I have to believe my father was a wise man. He knew, long before anyone ever dared to tell me, that the most important person in your life is you. First time he told me, I thought he was just a selfish person. After all, my mother drilled into me his flawed individuality since I…

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