At a certain point, I need to admit it; it’s either writing or reading.
With the types of books I read, I cannot even pretend there’s some semblance of control. There isn’t; I submerge so deep in the book I read that I have no space for anything else.

So I need to decide. Do I want to write it or not? Does writing give me as much joy as reading? Do I want it so badly that I will give up, even slightly, the utter pleasure that is reading?

I want to do it. So, compromises and adjustments need to be made.