writing

  • One word

    I feel his eyes on me, again.It has been a habit since we started working together, even amid the crowded room where we heatedly debate this merger.I keep the silence as my weapon. I lean forward with my elbows on the table, slightly biting my fingers, while I wait for some kind of truce between

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  • Updates on the book and some lessons learned. With the end of Act I almost complete, it was time for a pause and regroup. Counting words is not enough anymore; a sum of cells does not translate into a being, after all. Therefore, many other ingredients are required. Planning: One of the most challenging things

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  • Dreading

    She died a thousand deaths before she was ready to assume defeat.For people like her, who never surrender, dying means nothing; it simply means you must keep trying, keep pushing.It took her so long to accept that sometimes death is not defeat, it’s a blessing. And you can choose it for yourself, even if nobody

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  • Life happens even when you don’t have the time for it.It’s unfair how much more time I would need for all that I want to do. It’s unfair how much I still struggle with it. Life has been happening—a good life, with other projects and other type of work. Meaningful work, nonetheless. But still, no

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  • Time allocation

    The fact that I know how crucial social media is for this book endeavor annoys me greatly.I am good with words, I am good with books and notebooks, I excel at my corporate job, and I even do a decent job at motherhood…but social media? I am useless. I’m too old for those skills; I

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  • Not all cried out

    Sometimes I sit in silence and cry for her. Have this need to cry for all the love she did not get, for the abandonment nights, for the neglect of her feelings. Need to cry for every time she thought it was her fault, she had needs that could not be met. For all the

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  • Spellbound

    You know the exact moment where it starts. You might decide to ignore it, pretend it did not happen, make it smaller than it was, but below all those layers, you just know it was there It’s all in the eyes, you see. One random day, out of the blue, after 1h or 10 years

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  • Vices of choice

    The day I stopped reading fantasy, I started drinking. There was no smooth transition from one to the other, just strangely realise. – “Why do you drink?” – He asked. A he that I do not really know the name anymore, if I must be honest. He is friend of a friend, I think. The

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  • Characters

    I am currently building characters. Seems like a necessary requirement for writing any good book. Although, to be honest I did not study for this, so have no clue how it is done*. But common sense (my dearest old friend) tells me that you need deep, dense characters that you can relate with. The thing

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