• Why he looks at me, asking for my opinion? Why he listens to what I have to say? Why my points of view are valued? Because I read everything! Because I know what is going on around, I keep myself informed, I link the dots, I talk with people on the floor so I know

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  • It happens

    Re-reading and questioning everything.I’m unsure if the words are good (even) for me, which makes doubt creep in. I wrote like a crazy person to meet my Q2 deadline in one month, and suddenly, I read back, and I didn’t feel it. So I have words, the words I wanted, but they need a lot

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  • Time allocation

    The fact that I know how crucial social media is for this book endeavor annoys me greatly.I am good with words, I am good with books and notebooks, I excel at my corporate job, and I even do a decent job at motherhood…but social media? I am useless. I’m too old for those skills; I

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  • Be real

    The truth is, I am questioning everything. The comfortable conform thoughts I had about live, the certainties about my career, what I saw myself doing, all the posh curated designed life I was certain I wanted. And then, I see a picture of a cabinet, handmade by one wooden piece, that would definitely not fit

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  • The basics of love

    Respect and admiration. Depending on the love: attraction is crucial also. Just so nobody forgets during writing.

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  • The want is exploding out of my cells.Visceral daily reaction contained only in my skin.It’s not visible, so I pretend.There’s nothing else, so I fake.I can fake anything; never believe otherwise.Nobody can pretend to themselves like I do.I can talk myself out of my deepest desires for eternity.Always a bit longer.But when the deck holding

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  • To do absolutely nothing. Feeling it’s too much of everything, even trying, I procrastinate the return.But I will return, I have no doubt. I am just tired. And I let it top over. I have so many words in me that they don’t make sense anymore. That’s what happens when I spend two weeks without

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  • Plot twists twisting

    I wish I could tell you what I am putting in the cards for you, dear reader. Unfortunately, the ride will be bumpy, dark and full of terrifying twits. You heart will be ripped out by the end of book one, disbelieve will settle and in the beginning of book two you will understand the

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  • Hate people

    I’ve been on the edge. I feel like screaming at people every step of the way: anxiety, annoyance, general restlessness. I don’t like it a little bit. It could be work-related, or it could be the “I want it all and I want it now” attitude, or it could be hormones. Oh, life is a

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  • Grateful

    Sometimes, but not every day, I feel grateful for the punches life has already thrown at me. At least some lessons were already learned. At least I know how to navigate uncertainty. I know nothing is forever, and I am rarely thrown out of balance. Accepting all the punches in apparent apathy. The apathy of

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