• If I had to choose one sentence to define 2025, it would be this: I finally stopped lying to myself.About what I want, what I don’t want, and who I actually am when I’m not performing for anyone else. This year was not soft. It was not delicate. It was not wrapped in velvet bows.…

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  • History and Religion

    Discussing history and religious implications in my head is one of my pastimes. Born and raised Catholic, I have been agnostic for a long time now. I believe in magic, and therefore I believe that something more might be possible, even if it is, rationally speaking, improbable. The intricacies of Catholicism never cease to amaze…

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  • Villain Era

    I have to believe my father was a wise man. He knew, long before anyone ever dared to tell me, that the most important person in your life is you. First time he told me, I thought he was just a selfish person. After all, my mother drilled into me his flawed individuality since I…

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  • Magical Echos

    Don’t Blame me – Taylor Swift For you, I would cross the lineI would waste my timeI would lose my mindThey say, “She’s gone too far this time” (…) And baby, for you, I (I) would (would) fall from graceJust (just) to (to) touch your faceIf (if) you (you) walk awayI’d beg you on my…

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  • The end of this day

    The day was like any other. Just a regular day with a crappy schedule.Just another appointment with my mother at the hospital.Just a small hope that maybe this latest disease progression was a reversible mistake. Well, it is not. Today marks the day she is officially in palliative care.You’re welcome.We manage pain and discomfort now,…

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  • Blank page

    After months of circling around the idea like a suspicious cat, I bought Scrivener yesterday. Everyone said it was the tool for writers. And still, I resisted for as long as possible (more than a year, to be honest) — partly because I’m stubborn, partly because I thought I could get away with working through…

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  • Sitting with discomfort

    Being able to sit with discomfort should get you medals. And choosing to surrender control and sit there anyway, not knowing the end, that’s next-level bravery. This is technically a 2026 problem, but now that I’ve seen it on the horizon, I need time to think. To overthink. To spiral a little and prepare myself…

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  • Joint words

    There are sentences that take up residence in my mind. Authors, books, lyrics – they put a string of words together and suddenly it becomes essential. I can’t live without that phrase echoing inside me, I’m done for. It’s boardline obsessive how much I think about certain sentences. And the worst (or best) part? I…

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  • Out of the confort zone

    I hate it with all my being — the waiting, the buildup, the excruciating preparation. The more space I give it in my head, the bigger and uglier it becomes. So I try to downplay it. I tell myself it’s not a big thing, that it’s fine. But then the anxiety settles in anyway, staying…

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  • There’s no title

    Maybe, just maybe, I need to let the words out.But words shouldn’t be released.Words should stay inside, for the sake of everyone else. I could scream.I could let everything spill out from my clogged pores.But then again… adulthood.My most detested hood, without a doubt. Being an adult means knowing the consequences, and worse, caring about…

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