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The truth is, I am questioning everything. The comfortable conform thoughts I had about live, the certainties about my career, what I saw myself doing, all the posh curated designed life I was certain I wanted. And then, I see a picture of a cabinet, handmade by one wooden piece, that would definitely not fit…
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The want is exploding out of my cells.Visceral daily reaction contained only in my skin.It’s not visible, so I pretend.There’s nothing else, so I fake.I can fake anything; never believe otherwise.Nobody can pretend to themselves like I do.I can talk myself out of my deepest desires for eternity.Always a bit longer.But when the deck holding…
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I’ve been on the edge. I feel like screaming at people every step of the way: anxiety, annoyance, general restlessness. I don’t like it a little bit. It could be work-related, or it could be the “I want it all and I want it now” attitude, or it could be hormones. Oh, life is a…
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Sometimes, but not every day, I feel grateful for the punches life has already thrown at me. At least some lessons were already learned. At least I know how to navigate uncertainty. I know nothing is forever, and I am rarely thrown out of balance. Accepting all the punches in apparent apathy. The apathy of…
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I cannot save him anymore. I can only push him through this mad world by hand, protecting him even so slightly from emotional damage.Reality catches with us all; he got at least 10 additional years than I had.Would I like to keep on my motherly protectiveness? Yes.Would I like for him not to have the…